Burn Out

Definition: “Refers to long-term exhaustion and diminished interest in work.” (Wikipedia)

I hate my job.

I know, it is pretty harsh.

It wasn’t always like this. I used to love my work. In fact, it never even felt like work to me. Meeting people from all walks of life and helping them find a job, I couldn’t wait to get out of bed in the morning. And not to toot my own horn or anything, but I was good at it!

And then something happened. Well, it probably wasn’t one thing. It was probably a whole mess of things over the last five years that really dampened my spirits. Over time, it feels like my job changed from helping people to being all about money. And being a Recruiter is NOT an easy job. In fact, it’s painful. I hear “no” over 10 times a day on a daily basis. No one is ever happy what with you do, candidates are not happy with the offer, managers are not happy with the candidates that you spent hours looking for, no one says thank you and all of those people that you helped? Well, once they get the job, they completely forget about you. Add on to that unreasonable corporate expectations and pressures, thousands of discussions about money, and a job that doesn’t really change. It’s become soul crushing for me.

Yup...

Yup…

 

I want to cry on a daily basis. I dread going to work. I dread talking about work. I rarely answer the phone. My chest tightens at every email I receive. I feel like I am trapped in my own version of Office Space. I have my own version of a damn TPS report with three managers that I report to, not to mention the four managers that I recruit for.

But here is my dilemma; I love the company I work for. How ironic is it that I finally work for my dream company, yet it is killing me? I’m looking into other options, but things are moving too slow and apparently I don’t sit in uncertainty very well…

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And in the meantime, how in the world am I supposed to perform well with all of this going on? I mean, just because I hate my job doesn’t mean that I don’t want to do well. Sigh, it’s not easy… and if you have any advice, I would love to hear it.